Who’s going to stay until the end of my life?
Or maybe… forever?
No one.
No one…

Even after everything, I still see nothing.
My love theory flipped entirely by her marital status.
Never in my life did I think I’d be the one to break into someone else’s marriage.
It shouldn’t be this way, Adelina.
It can’t be like this.

But it happened.

I wandered through their house.
I slept in their bed.
I can’t believe I did.
Worse… I miss it.
That night. Our night.

I can’t stop.
I don’t know how to stop.

Those five days were the loveliest version of life I’ve ever craved.
I wished for that.
I wanted that.
Right or wrong?
I stayed.
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We never said it out loud.
She tried to shield me from it.
But I know.
I did.

Her presence feels more alive than ever.
So does her absence.

Her presence. And her ghost.
I’m keeping both.

What were you expecting?
An apology? Or agreement?
Softness doesn’t work anymore.
Not in my life.
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I’m afraid.
I was too good at hiding it.
Old wounds don’t disappear.
They wait.

Until I found my voice.
Keeping her beside me had a cost.

I knew that.
I chose it anyway.
My journey of healing and bleeding—every move was mine.
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Why did you choose to walk into the unknown, Elara?
Because I did.
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I knew.